seriously though

gonna bawl my eyes out.

belief-makesthingsreal:

<3

can’t even concentrate. finally at a good point and then i just have to say goodbye to important people in my life. i hate goodbyes. they are literally the worst fucking thing in the whole world and scare me to death. all that shit about “its not goodbye, its see ya later”.. no, whata lie. goodbye means goodbye and who likes to say goodbye. like seriously, whats the point of becoming close to people just to watch them walk outa your life. when people have impact i want them there forever. change is something i fear and i know thats bad but when im happy, why do things need to change. its shitty the way that works. completely shitty and i dont think ill ever see the value in letting things or people go. or maybe i dont see the value of letting them in the first place. if you dont let people in, it wont hurt so much when you lose them..

ugh angry ungrateful post thatll bite me in the ass no doubt